Yes i am a GIRL..

I push Doors that clearly says PULL ;)
I laugh harder when i try to explain y i ma laughing =D...
I walk into room and forget why i was there B)
I count on my fingers in math class =D
I try to accomplish things with time still on the microwave =/
I lie sometimes to hide the pain =(
I cry a lot more that u think i can do. X(

I am not so strong as my smile seems to be :)

I get attached to people who care even little bit about me. :)

A broken nail is as painful as broken heart ;-)

I say it's a long story when its really not :-x
I fall in love too hard too fast.

And i always care more than i can.. =))


Yess I AM A GIRL, & I'M PROUD OF IT.. =)

fact :)

In this weird Twisted way ,,, I know eu Misx  me liking eu ,,, NOT BECAUSE I want to believe its TRUE ,,, BUT because EU"LL NEVER FINE A GURL DAT can put up wif eu lyke I did :)) 

Eu'll never fine a gurl who will CARE as much as I DID ,, 
BECAUSE nO one will waste all their LURP on sumone lyke eu ,,,, 
LYKE I DID <<< and I regret it alll my life ....

fact :)

 In this weird twisted way ,, I know eu misx me liking eu ,,, Not because I want to believe its TRUE ,,BUT because eu'll never find a gurl dat can put up wif eu lyke I DID :)) EU"LL NEVER find a gurl who care as much AS I DID ,, because NO ONE will WASTE their LURP on sumone lyke EU <<< LYKE I DID << and I regret it all my life .... 

from what i see ,, saw ,, feel

LOVE ? What is it ? We think about it ,,, Sing about it ,,, Dream about it ,, Lose sleep worrying about it ,,,, When we dont have it ,, We search for it : When we discover it ,, we dont know what to do wif it : When we have it ,, WE fear losing it . 

IT is the constant source of pleasure and pain . We cant predict which it will be from one moment to the next >>> 

 IT is a short word ,, easy to spell ,,DIFFICULT TO DEFINE ,, impossible to live without ,,,,, <3<3<3 :)

seem i misx him ,,

Halow ,, mw ceta sal sorg nhe ,, ex ak ,, ak x tw lh npa ,, ak masi xdpt lupa dya ,, DAmn man ,,, padahal lama da pun xda phpa ma dya ,,, ak tltl xdpt lupa dya ,, 1 skul n 1 tahun da kmi break ,, mc xdpt ,,, hate it anywhere ,,, dya sma pempuan len now ,, i guess ,, bap dya rapat tl ma pempuan thu ,, sakit aty ak ,,,, 

even aku rapat ma sumone nhe ,, still ak xdpt lupa dya ,,, xtw lh dya ,, maybe dya da get over me oledy ,,, if uwda gud 4 him ,,, xlh dya rasa cm ak rasa ,,, hu ,,, 

Aku mw kasi tw cnhe dat ,, I crusly MISX him ,, alot i guess ,,,, and im totally in pain now ,,, just mw share ph ak rsa now ,, btw ,, sorry 4 what have done ,,, tc ,,, 

When Girl Cry

Have you ever wondered why a woman cry because of a man? Maybe because you have grown accustomed to the level that she was like crying ...

A woman will not cry easily, but only when she began to love you, she began to lower the ego for you just because you are.
... ...
When she cries in front of you,
When she cried for you,
Look in his eyes,
Can you feel what he felt?
Have you ever TRY to understand what he felt?
Think ...
Isnt it worthed she cries,
Before you,
Just because you?

She cried not because she is weak,
She cried not because he pity or sympathy,
She cried,
Because she was not able to cry in the liver,
The sorrow that he felt to be increasingly reluctant to be saved.

Guys,
Try to take time to think,
Where's she crying just because you,
Perhaps it is time to think back to where you are wrong,
Because only you know the answer.

Think,
Because one day,
It may be too late to regret,
Or too late to say "forgive me ..."

Guys, if a woman crying for you, do not you let him cry alone.  be beside of her, with her, because she will be faithful to you until the end of your life.

Guys, if a woman crying for you, do not you leave her as long as she still needs you. Because you will damage the lives her's.

Guys, do not ever reveal your love to a woman as long as you are not quite ready to believe and love. Because you will only make her miserable ... she cried and it was easy for a woman to pretend to forget his old love, especially the first love, but it is not easy to remove the scar in his soul ...

here some story ,,

There was a Boy ‘n a Girl,
They were best friends for years ‘n years,
They could Talk for hours on the Phone ‘n text each other for days,
When They were Together;
Not a single Sad Thought could cross their Minds, :) everything was Great, But One Day;

The Boy did not Answer any Call or Reply to any Text for a Day,
The Girl was worried that something was Wrong..:(
at night She couldn’t Sleep.., She was sitting in her Room Crying,
‘n It was then that She Realized how much He Means to Her..? :(

The next Morning;
She woke Up from a Phone call.., It was the Boy..:)

Boy : Hey..,
Girl : Im so glad that you Called Me, What happened to you yesterday ??
Boy : I was Busy
[ The GIRL Understood that;
Something was Wrong but could not Ask]

[silence]

Boy : You know..; We should Stop talking..!
Girl: What??.., But Why ?? :(
Boy: I am Sorry, Bye..! :(

[He Disconnected the call, 'n She Felt as If Somebody
had Slammed the door on Her face]

Everything else Flashed in Her Mind,
Tears :’(
Cars running by Her..
Roof of some building..’n Sunset..
She couldn’t understand anything..
She started Feeling Lonely, Dejected, ‘n broken..:’(

That was the answer to everything! His words were pouncing on her..
Her heart wanted to jump out!

He was the One..! “Why..??”
She Screamed at the Top of her Voice;
Then She made up Her Mind to make a last Try to get Him Back..!

[She called Him Up]
Girl: hi…
Boy: Why are you calling Me?
Girl: I need to tell you Something..
Boy: Go Ahead.
Girl: I Just Wanted You to know one thing before we stopped talking!
Boy: Tell me..!

Girl: Are you All right?
[She broke off..!
She tried but may be he doesn't really Care about Her,
She Thought!
She wasn't His friend in the first Place...
Tears were slowly running Worst :'(
She left the House with a Note..!

[5 hours later]

Phone Rang in the Boy’s Room,
It was the Girl’s Mum,
The girl was lying in the hospital, Got hit by a Car, :’(
The Boy rushed to the Hospital where She was.

She Opened Her Eyes with the Boy’s name..,
He took her Hand..

Boy: Im so Sorry Its all my fault..! But;
I promise when U get better I’ll make It up to You..:(

Girl: I wont get Better..
Boy: No..! No Don’t say that..:(
Girl: just tell me one thing Why did you do it?

Boy told her that He had a Heart problem ‘n
he did not want her to be worried;
‘n there was a risk that he could have Died..!

Boy: I did that because I…..I…..I Love you..?
Girl : I LOVE YOU TOO..?

‘n After That her heart Stopped Beating…:O
She Died..! :’(
The Boy died 10 mins later from a Heart Attack..:’(

He could not live with the thought that;
She died Because of Him.. :’(

-Moral:
If You Love Someone…;
Then Don’t Hold Back Your Feelings…
because Love is The Reason to Live..!
Love is Beautiful..? !

im sorry mm

 mm ~ 

im soe sorry i keep hurtin' eu , 

i just dont know what i suppose to do ,, 

he keep controlin' me ,, 

I just Need eu soe much ,, 

plsx dont leave me ,, 

its just misunderstanding dear ,,, hu ,,, 

im tired of this ,,

and crusly 

I MISX EU ,,

i Need EU ,,,

the bullshit of HIM ,,

want to share bout a SUCKER,,

he was my ex ,,, 

and he is so damn fucking hurting me ,

he keep tell everyone the nonsense of me ,, 

made up bad story bout me ,, 

what a fucker r eu ???

what had i done to eu ?? 

sampai koe brbis serang ak ,,, and x puas hati ma ak ???

what !!??

eventhough ak x balas cket pun ph koe buat ma ak ?? ph hal nhe bro ?? 

padahal , koe yg c sket ati ak sgtsgt ,, ak sabar jak ,,what kind of man r eu ??

oh yeah i know ,, a COWARD one :)

why r eu do this to me ??

what did i done hah ??? 

i guess NOTHING lh :) 

or r eu jelous ??

eur frewn lurp me ?? hah ? 

what the hell !!!! 

get lost lh eu ! 

p lh koe ngan hidup koe ,,

ak x teringin pun mw msuk idup koe ,,, 

sowe lh ,, 

if terasa pndaipndai lh koe idup :) 

my bad :) ahah 

p lh koe maty ,, jn cbuk ngan idup ak lh bro ,,, 

babai :)

we r not the perfect two !

we always used to talk
real late after midnight
Now the only thing we do
on the phone is fight
is there a way to
make this go away
i dont think that
we're gonna be okay
you were my hero and i
was your sidekick
now you're gonna be the
tear that i cry when we split

baby i dont think that i
can do this
it seems so wrong makin'
up with only one kiss

dont think that i could ever be
able to stay with you now baby
cause in time i know that we'll
both see
we're not meant to be

cause you're the one
who makes me cry
you would never,
ever save me

all your words are
full of lies
you're not the one i
wanna marry

cause baby can't you see?
we're just a fantasy?
there's nothing we can do
we're not the perfect two

we're not the perfect two
we're not the perfect two
baby, me and you
we're not the perfect two

i thought you were my prince
and i was your princess
now that we're here
all of that is meaningless

i think i was a fool
for letting you fill the spaces
between my hands
and my diary pages

you used to be the one
that made me happy
you used to tell me
you were lucky to have me

now youre as cold
as the winter weather
but i dont care
cause we're no longer together

baby i dont think that i could ever be
able to stay with you now baby
cause in time i know that we'll
both see
we're not meant to be

cause you're the one 
who makes me cry
you would never,
ever save me

all your words are
full of lies
you're not the one i
wanna marry

cause baby can't you see?
we're just a fantasy?
there's nothing we can do
we're not the perfect two

we're not the perfect two
we're not the perfect two
baby, me and you
we're not the perfect two

you know that i'll never
love you
like the way i ever used to
but you kn0w i will
remember you

now that im gone i smile
it took me quite awhile 
to see we wont walk the aisle

cause you're the one
who makes me cry
you would never,
ever save me

all your words are
full of lies
you're not the one i
wanna marry

cause baby can't you see?
we;re just a fantasy?
there's nothing we can do
we're not the perfect two

we're not the perfect two
we're not the perfect two
baby, me and you
we're not the perfect two

cant let eu go ...

This lie's become a part of me
For months, I've played this game
Acting like it doesn't hurt
Each time I hear his name,

Ignoring what's inside of me
Pretending I've moved on
As if the feelings I once had
For him are somehow gone,

Spending each and every day
With happiness and laughs
Forgetting all our memories
Avoiding photographs,

But last night when I saw him
For the first time since he left
My heart stopped for a moment
I couldn't catch my breath,

When suddenly it hit me
As the tears started to flow
That even after all this time
I just can't let him go !!!

my lurp to eu is real

Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles. 

The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,

so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is were I want to be.
The way that I feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real.

plsx ,,, lh ...

hye Boy ,, dont ever think eu can fool me ,,, im t0o pro 4 dat :) ,, 

Boy ,, do eu even know  ,,, dat i realy care n miss eu ,,, 

do eu even realy lurp me ? if not ,, dont waste eur tmye lh ,,, 

eu mw me tggu koe ??? hmmm dont know lh ,,,,, 

Boy ,, dont waste my tmye :))

y gurls cRy ?

 Why Girl's Cry :
-A Girl Wont Cry Easily,
Except in Front of The Person;
Who She Love The Most,
She Becomes Weak..! :(
...-A Girl Wont Cry Easily,
Only When She Love You The Most,
She Put Down Her Ego..!
-If a Girl Cries Bcoz of You,
Hold Her Hands Firmly,
She's The one Who Would Stay
With You
For The Rest of Your Life..♥
-If a Girl Cries Bcoz of You,
Don't Give Her Up..!
Maybe Bcoz of Your Decision,
You Ruin Her Life..! :(
-She Cries Not Because She is
Weak,
She Cries Not Bcoz She Wants
Sympathy or Pity,
She Cries Because;
Crying Silently is No Longer
Possible..! :(
The Pain, Hurt N Agony Have
Become Too Big;
A Burden To Be Kept Inside..! :'(

And all because-If a Girl Cries Her Heart Out ToYou,Because of You;
Its Time To Look Back on What
You Have Done,
Only You Will Know The Answer
To it.. ♥ ♥

fact

girl thinks "i keep showing him all the love and care for him,but i dont understand why does he ignore me?i keep re-reading his texts,chats and mails,smiling to myself,sheding out tears sometimes...i wonder does he even know that i have fallen for him??? the more he ignores me,i more i keep loving him,i just dont know why .... i wish someone would make him understand my feelings "

boy thinks "i really love her so much more than even words cant express....its just that i hide it inside me,im afraid ill go crazy if she leaves me.... i hope she understands that im not ignoring her,im just not showing my love like she is .... "

you'Re not easy to forget , eu know ?

im sorry

sowesowesowe ma kmu suma ,,,
hmmm syahmi y koe x antak jak kpla ak jak ,,,
hmmm

aku benci lh gnhe ...

huuhu ,, aku stress !!! hu ,,, oi Fahmi ,,, bkn ak wa thu ,,, aku diamdiam jak ,, huhuh ,, aku yg kena ,,, Syahmi !! help me !!! plsx ,,, koe jak nhe harapan aku ,, lw x ,, ancur 3 tahun penantian aku busx ,,, plsx !! ,,, huhuh sad aku gila ,,,,, ancur o0w jiwa aku ,,, huhuhu ,,, this year mmg damn tuk aku !! sad ~

back t0 jail ~

today me balik skul :( malas !!!! hmm btw ,, will stop bloging 4 a moment >.< \
im GOING BACK TO0 JAIL !!!!
huuhu ,,, mw studystudystudy :)) pmrpmrpmr ,,, im dead =.="
im gtg now ,, of my way t0 jail >.< no mo0d ,,
but any way :) aku dpt coklte mlm nhe heheh ,,
>yumyum ~  dari licha :))) thnx darl
babai then ,,,, of i go then :))
<3 enjoy

friday ~

aku lngsung xdpt tdow ,, jm 6 pagi bru aku dpt tdow ,, hmmm dont know y ? btw ak ,, mw story  ph ak wt 1 day thu ,,, hmmm aku bgnbgn mata aku bengkak ,, :(( ada hitamhitam d bawah mata ,, >.< tpy bestbest bgnbgn ,, kena bawa jln :)) p tgk movie > kung fu panda :)) po kiuwt gila tmye dya baby heheh ,, kin gila oo aku tgk ,, :) btw ada frewn lama aku cntct ma aku blek ,, aku wndu dya ,, gudfrewn ak ,,, lama kmi x cntct ,, dya buat aku smile :) thnx eu hah ,,, 
hmmm btw frewn aku lgi(boy) ,, c ceta aku story pointless ,,kunukunu ble help aku tdow kunu ,,eheh ,, but its true :)) thnx eu ,,, aku share ma kmu hah ,, nhe di bawah >>
pada suatu hari....ada 3 bdak lelaki ni jlan p suria....trus...ada 1 bdak prempuan mo ikut.....jdi drang ksi ikut sja lah....then drang tgok mvie...tpi bdak prmpuan nie lmbat dtang...ada stu bdak llaki nie risau yg bdak prmpuan nie ndak dtang.......las2 bdak prmpuan tue dtang...hbis tgok wyng dang jlan p mkan,then p cp,,,,d cp bdak lelaki tu ksi teman bdak prmpuan tue tgok wyng......then they fall in love..... happily evr aftr...

today my life begins :)

i've been working hard soe long ,, seems lyke pain has been my only frewn ,,, my fragile heart's been done so wrong ,, i wondered if i'd ever heal again ,, just lyke ,, all de seasons never stay de same ,, all around me i can fell a change ,,,

i will break these chains dat bind me >> happynesx will find me leave the past behind me .. today my life begins :)

a whole new world is waiting 4 me >.< its mine 4 the takin' .. i know i can make it :))

yesterday has came n gone .. and i've learnt how to leave it where it is .. and see dat i was wrong for ever doubting i could win ,,

life is to0 short to have regrets,, (but i oledy have:( ) soe im learning now to leave it in de past ,, andand try to forget ,,

only have 1 life to live :) soe eu BETTER MAKE THE BEST OF IT :))

start new day with a fake smile :)

bgn jak pgi tdy ,, ancur o0w muka aku ahah ,,, want to know y ?? mata aku cam orang cina + korea + jepun ,, ahahah ... hmmm ,,, this lh what happen >> tidur late ,, bgun late ... ahha and +++ cry last night ,,, 

what a fool me ,,, huhu ,,, napa gak aku mw ingat koe lagi ? koe pun start da x layan aku .. knknkn ?? ahha 

nvm lh ,, aku try sedaya upaya aku ...tuk  happy k ? no worry ... aku janji ma koe ... hmmm by the way ...mm day without u = day with a fake happiness :) 

wish the best for u Fahmi Izzuddin . aahah ,, 

i still have my crazywonderfulfun friends :)) eheh  

k lh aku mw buat homework aku >> KKS (kerja kursus sej) hmmm babai <3

im single sudah ......

sad aku ,, huhu ,, kami break da .. dia say >> aku mau give up awal-awal . coz ex koe cari koe balik . aku x mau aku jadi gila nanti. lagi pun koe da byk b'rubah ....." hu..and so on ... kecewa aku ma sikap dia ... hmmm for 6 month relation aku ma dya>25.11.10-8.06.11< hancur hati aku ...:( 

koe tw x koe akan menyesal ....... one of a kind nhe aku .. aiya ,,,, aku x faham jalan fikiran koe .. 

aku berubah ??? dulu kini and selamanya .. aku tetap aurora .. aku mintak maaf bykbyk ... bagi koe aku da b'rubah ... hope koe tetap ingat shpa aku tuk koe ,,, jan sad sad ... x bek .... k lah ,,, babai .... 

ineedsumonewhounderstandmycondition >.<